country tears

ever heard a song that didn't explain how you were feeling at all? but how you wished someone else might have felt...because then you would have probably changed your own feelings? yah...that's me. i find myself randomly wanting to cry...like a lot, simply walking past a stupid field where i may have went golfing once; or cut across through a couple yards using a short cut someone had walked with me through...

and then i realize i'm such an idiot because they just...don't feel the same way. y'know? i mean - it's not like they don't totally forget about me, but i'm just not the same to them anymore.

anyway - the meaning of the title of this post: country tears is a term i thought of in my head {late night thoughts...so rich y'know?} where one person feels so dang much but they learn through tough experience that it's better to keep it bottled up; but then they have to cry sometime right? so they cry inside. those are country tears.

{i country cry a lot.}

but then just like crying, once it's over it's done. you're not even hardly sad anymore. just like the country - you keep going, you live, you adjust and you just...move on. no matter how hard it is, it's just life. no matter how much you could take those kisses back, take back all the things you said that you guess now were over-hasty...it's never going to happen.

so here's a country song to end this post. a kabungle of the beginning of this post {i don't feel the way this song sings but i wish sometimes that someone else did - but after my country tears, i'm ok that they dont...just havin' a hard time movin on y'know?} *wink...

the end. {sorry, i know - another post about that but i promise, it's one of the last ones. i'm moving on. haha literally.}

kaylla

ps - ok maybe the song does apply to me. whatever. i like the song either way - it's got a nice guitar part IF ANYTHING ok?

bye