click on this link to check out my new blog!

honesty is a virtue.

and in the spirit of honesty, i am quite tired of this blog. i do like to write blog posts though. so keep your eyes open for when i have my next one open.

*warning: this next blog will probably have a focus other than my oh-so-interesting life. i'm tired of not being able to post my thoughts because people are so critical of the way i live, or because no one gives a darn.

*highlight: this blog will be fun. no dramatic rants.

talk later! bye.

365 posts

this is an odd experience for me. today i realized that i have 364 posts, and no more drafts because i deleted them all. which makes this one the 365th one. so...if you started reading today and only read one post a day, it would take you only a year to go through nearly three years of my life via posts.

strange that i've been at this for so long. admittedly i've changed the URL at least twice and the blog design itself probably at least twenty times but in the end it's all the same words. it's still just me...just kaylla.

and it's kind of like that quote:

"Funny how day by day nothing changes but looking back, everything's changed."

and it's so true. i still feel like kaylla. but i know that so much has changed i couldn't even hope to put my finger on all of the things. i've been broken and put back together. i've been burned and then healed. i've laughed and i've cried. i've found love a few times and lost it too. i've moved a couple times and made new friends. i've discovered friends in unlikely places and then just as unexpectedly lost them again. most importantly i have grown.

i've grown from a young girl of innocent dreams to a young woman of tall hopes. i've grown in love for my Savior and His true gospel. i've fallen in love with life and sunshine. i've discovered music in my very soul and beauty in the smile of those around me.

i know it will only keep going like this and i'm honestly so very, very excited. i'm excited where the next few years may take me. i know i will end up happy in the end although life may not go according to plan.

we can only hope our plans fall through...and many of them won't. but some of them will. i hope that in two years i will meet up with my best friend and we'll be able to honestly see where to go from there. i hope to serve a mission...and i'm pretty darn tootin' sure i'm gonna. i hope that in about four years...ish...i will be starting my own little family. i hope to be able to graduate from USU. i hope to have adventures and to see this beautiful country on my little excursions {join me sometime!}

i'll make it.

i've got the rest of my life ahead of me. i have nothing in my way to stop me but myself. life is so incredibly open to me that i couldn't possibly do anything but smile and share that happiness every single day with those around me.

so see you around

{picture 1...a long time ago..., picture 2 - sophomore year, picture three - summer of 2011, picture 4 - same and picture 5 - graduation}


{wink.}

apology

i have to finish a semester of Health in three weeks.

i am currently in a play, with very complicated choreography

i am studying for my upcoming AP Lit exam

i have a test in Poli Sci next week

i'm preocupied with finding time to spend with my friends, and best friend

i'm kinda distracted by another blog i'm working on

i get to go to California for four days

i might be a little bit busy for the next while.

this is my apology, if in case you don't hear from me in a while.

sorry.

friendly notice

so a friend from my old, old ward (two houses ago in other words...) has this beautiful, inspiring, delightful blog that i occasionally enjoy reading. she has just...a very clear way of writing and it's bright and happy and, well yes. she's one of my heroes. not to mention...she's a truly classy young woman. read her blog. she's lovely. specifically this post, because it reminds me how blessed i am with having so many friends who are exactly as she describes is lacking but desirable. you will understand - just read.

enjoy.

stickys!

i'm in. one of my favorite two blogger ladies wrote about sticky-notes on their blog. i'm a sucker for those cute little square pads of sticky paper. let's just say that Salem Hills' girls' bathrooms will never have been so filled with love.

look out.

and thanks hannah and mallory for the beautiful idea. (:

read about it. it's a lovely idea, don't you think?

mission possible: abandon facebook

i'm excited

really.

a month, starting today i am abandoning facebook.

if you know me personally...you know i'm a little addicted, however

i'm not giving up writing on my blog. so either you will hear a LOT more from me or a lot less...we'll see I suppose, won't we?

like i said...i'm excited.

i want to break this "addiction" so badly,

and now i have a great opportunity to do just that.

and i'm taking it.

not to mention, this very well may be how i actually learn how to talk on the phone. so call me! or email me, and i will give you my house phone or my mom's cell {which i use occasionally too}

mossflowergirl {at} gmail {dot} com

hope to hear from you soon.

and maybe come for a real visit? i miss you...

you know who you are...

that's right. you.

{smile}

love always,

kaylla white.

a post for the stalkers.

because i have a question for you few out there. would you rather 1) read details about my life, 2) my takes on those things happening in my life, or 3) random things that have nothing to do with anything. warning...if you choose number 1 i definitely may be posting less simply because i'm a privacy freak, especially since i know how open i am in giving my blog address.

know this, i haven't been posting as much because so much of what is happening in my life is too special to share with just anyone. i know that's harsh...but it's okay. pretty sure you are strong. maybe when things are more solid under my feet i will. but for now...

just know that i feel your pain. (:

Explanation

why did i have to change my blog address? let's just say the world is full of bad guys. it's really not important the in depth story but just a warning to all you young girls out there; don't always trust people the way you wish you could. not everyone is deserving of that pure trust that you are capable of giving them. they will misuse it. and when that happens, your privacy and sometimes your safety are at risk. you will get hurt.

there is some very personal information on my blog that if you compiled it all you could totally make a stalker profile for me. you can even find out where i live if you tried hard enough. so because there are evil people out there who i would like to avoid and divert, i am going to attempt to remove all personal info like that, also avoid personal stuff that could be potentially harming and i am also asking something of you. please, if you know me personally don't link yourself to my blog. i know that sounds kind of snobbish but if one of those people who are the cause for my needing to change my blog address are also reading your blogs, and you're connected to mine...i'll just have to keep changing the URL which you have no idea is a HUGE pain in my rear end.

so keep my interests at heart; this really doesn't apply to those people who don't know me personally {in which case a shoutout to those readers, i seriously love your guts, because not only do you read my thoughts but i read your blogs as well and enjoy all of them!}

anyway; be careful with other people's privacy, don't do drugs...eat your vegetables...you know the routine ;P

Thanks everyone!

attention!

i have to change my blog address. if you would like to continue reading my blog, please email me at mossflowergirl@gmail.com. I'll wait a while of course so that anyone who wants can get this message but about a week from today this blog will no longer be accessible via this URL. sorry, thanks again for reading!

::[write seven random things about yourself, then have everyone else follow the trend]::

some crazy wonderful blogger {named Kait} who i follow/creep upon tagged me in her post {not gonna lie...i totally felt special, first of all because she also signed up as a follower on my blog too. yah. i feel reeeeaaaaallly special and there is zero sarcasm in that}

also i love reading her blog. i have a couple of favorite posts, like this one and this one too. you should follow her. she's pretty, spells her name in a unique way and her blog has the same name as one of the character in the musical Les Mis who sings my favorite song mentioned in this post.

so here's the game. it's called:

{Write Seven Random Things About Yourself, Then Have Everyone Else Follow the Trend}

here goes nuthin.

1:: i don't like shoes. whenever i can i will go without. sadly during the winter time it is difficult {let's face it; no shoes + utah snow + sophomore year's frostbite = wool socks are a necessity!} even in winter i'm this crazy. wait. i mean awesome.

2:: i'm super superstitious. whenever i have a dream {which sadly is actually kind of rare} i will look up all that i can on a little online dream dictionary. when my ears start ringing i think people are talking bad about me. i make wishes at 3:33 and 11:11 {so excited for 11/11/11 11:11 this year...hehe} and when my necklace's clasp touches the pendant i say that "he" is thinking about me. these are just a few...believe you me. superstition.

3:: what's the opposite of claustrophobia? i like being in close spaces. if you wrap me up real tight i'll probably fall asleep and not just because i've been sleep deprived since freshman year. i nearly fell asleep in a cave {nutty putty caves} more specifically the "wormhole." google it. {this is also probably why i love hugs so so much. especially from...well...him.

4:: when i was little and my dad gave me M&M's in my high chair i sorted them by color and then by how many were in each color group. then and only then would i eat them. can anyone say OCD much?

5:: i'm not a licensed driver. yes, i know...i'm a senior, i'm 17, and i live in the middle of nowhere, all very good reasons to have it by now. {technically. to me i live in the best place on earth though so...doesn't matter} oh and guess what, i don't even have a permit anymore. if i weren't so much against lying then i'd just say it was all revoked. but yah. no lies here. i'm just lame.

6:: i have started many many collections. so far i have collected music boxes, dolls, quotes and am currently going through a white figurine phase. i like this one, they are beautiful objects. oh and i also collected shoe boxes once upon a time. don't ask haha.

7:: i sleep walk and sleep talk. too many funny stories to tell you just one but just a taste: i was having a sleepover once and tried to break into my friends closet in my sleep. i woke up standing up talking to myself. it's a weird sensation. i pity my future missionary companions and my husband-to-be. hopefully they'll love me the same despite it.

i am now going to tag...hm....brittani, kelsey, cynthia, nicole and spud (: hopefully...they'll see this but if not...too bad, their loss. but hey! you're invited to if you want to just accept the challenge! Do it...not as easy as it looks...{?} haha.

Today, Things are Looking Up.

First: my friend came to early morning seminary. he even ate his eggs raw so he would be there on time. he's one of the most amazing people I've ever met.

Second: the history/political science test I was stressed about was a piece of cake. Thank you Mr. Haymond for drilling those theories and ideas into me so I don't even have to study for this class.

Third: I have friends in Paige and Jess. We altos? yah, we rock. Oh and Joe's hugs are wonderful pick-me-ups.

Fourth: Lunch time was just fun, with my friend's younger brother eating with us it was cool to just see those two bouncing off each other. I like seeing siblings who are friends in and outside of school. Also Libby's attempts to warm up Seth's peach...ha. Oh the lovely things of life (:

Fifth: my apple was so big, it could even have been used to show the size of my brain, that's how big it was. not even joking - please believe me. it was maximus (:

Sixth: in Andrews' class I got the assignment done with plenty of time to spare. that's always nice not having homework.

Seventh: Mr. Bills will find a surprise for him when he gets back to his choir room. I'm excited to hear about that one... (:

Eighth: watching fiddler was extremely enjoyable being surrounded by friends who appreciate all the same things that I do. It's surprising to notice what a difference that makes, that instead of friends teasing your likes and etc., they are agreeing with you. It's a good feeling.

Ninth: I'm going on a date tonight.

Life is always better when you look upward instead of downwards. Yesterday I changed my blog's title in case you didn't notice...{yah, blind much if you didn't notice?} It's from a talk from the last conference. I love it. Yesterday I wrote at least six different posts just about how disappointed I was about the day...but didn't post them. Today...there were downs to it, but it's always just better to focus on those things that will lift rather than drag.

Life is still good. Life is truly beautiful, even in it's hurts and sorrows.

{post script}: I now have sixteen followers! (: my goal of having 20 by the end of the school year is seeming more and more possible each time I see those numbers change (: thank you readers for...ha, reading. it means a lot to me that my thoughts, my words mean something to another person, even if it is just a passing thought.

unwritten

this song makes me happy: so i thought i'd share it with you.



quote of the day/embarrassing moment (although not mine...heh heh):

so i stuck my tongue out at this guy who was teasing me during Spotlight players and then i quickly turned around to face the front but he threw this comment at me (about sticking my tongue out) "Don't stick it out unless you want to share it!"

let's just say that lovely moments like this are our specialty. (: if you've been reading my blog you'll know who i'm talking about.

Also - heads up, i'm going to be posting less...because i want to write more personally about these people that i'm meeting and that kind of stuff belongs in my journal and not on a blog. But i won't forget you...I'll just...not remember you as much, because i'll be busy making the memories.

but just for kicks, here's a message to the girls: find a man who will talk to you just as willingly on the phone, as text and definitely face to face; who will save you from oncoming crowds of people in the hallway and who will...be your friend, at all costs no matter what, no matter what people say about you that may or may not be true.

Kaylla.

changes

just for you information, i have updated the "my story" tab {look up and on the gray-ish bar you will see it} to include the past year as well. thanks for reading (:

love,

kaylla

Ow.Ch

dear hurtful anonymous person.

refrain from saying hurtful things on my blog. maybe then i wouldn't feel like i need to make my blog private. refrain from being silly and immature as well. not everything is meant to be taken so literally, especially my blog. at least next time shoot me an email if you have an issue with my writing {mossflowergirl@gmail.com}, that way we could talk this out like civilized people.

thank you.

kaylla.

{post script} for any other anonymous readers out there, please feel free to follow my blog so i can know who is reading this. maybe that way i can more correctly tailor my words and thoughts to something more appropriate for you to read, and as harmless as possible.

{post post script} anyone else disregard this post. it is a reference to a comment on a past post.

day one: hello stranger.

name: McKaylla Joel White {not after billy joel, after my mom's french heritage}

age: 17 {best age eva.}

favorites: {all of which are plural because i can never choose just one}

book: Book of Mormon (: and...haha, too many others to list.

movie: adjustment bureau, pride & prejudice, letters to juliet...many a chick flick will satisfy me too. oh and harry potter.

artist: david tolk, ingrid michaelson, christina perri, miranda hall, he is we, mindy gledhill, rascal flatts, brad paisley

song: {can i ever choose?} currently..."stranger" by katie costello

sport: soccer and ultimate frisbee

pastime: blogging, reading, riding my bike, experiencing random adventures

color: turquoise.

basic beliefs: there is a heavenly father who cares for me without end, i am His princess. He has been and always will be there for me. He is my strength.

location: elk ridge. before that: highland, american fork and pleasant grove.

future plans: college, a possible major in the composition of music...who knows though. those things kind of change a lot when i have to spend time thinking about it.

miscellaneous: i have a passion for comfortable clothes {which usually include sweats or b-ball shorts, t-shirts and my bright red slippers}, i have a stache of post-it notes...some of which are hidden away in the back of my closet. my most prized possession is my family. i can't swim but that's okay because i've never seen the ocean either. i am a crazy sappy person...with quirks, like walking like a duck. my life revolves around music...in fact i eat, drink, breathe and laugh it. i like color but then i also like black and white...my name is white after all. someday i will marry my true love...hopefully he will be patient for and forgiving to me.

and zat eez eet!!! well sorta, but who wants to talk about themselves forever :P

jus' fo' kicks.

30 day blogging challenge:

Day 01 – Introduce yourself with pictures and words

Day 02 – Your first love


Day 03 – Your parents


Day 04 – What you ate today 


Day 05 – Your definition of love


Day 06 – Your day

Day 07 – Your best friend


Day 08 – A moment


Day 09 – Your beliefs

Day 10 – What you wore today 


Day 11 – Your siblings


Day 12 – What’s in your bag


Day 13 – This week

Day 14 – What you wore today

Day 15 – Your dreams

Day 16 – Your first kiss

Day 17 – Your favorite memory


Day 18 – Your favorite birthday

Day 19 – Something you regret


Day 20 – This month


Day 21 – Another moment


Day 22 – Something that upsets you

Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better


Day 24 – Something that makes you cry

Day 25 – A first

Day 26 – Your fears

Day 27 – Your favorite place


Day 28 – Something that you miss


Day 29 – Your aspirations


Day 30 – One last moment

we'll see how far i can get down the list of days ;P

credit to and stolen from MEG {my favorite person to blog stalk these days}. enjoy (:

-kaylla

just because

TEN HOW'S:

How did you get one of your scars?
eyebrow: i jumped into the corner of the TV set and split my face open. blooood. elbow: playing in the tub with lilly and we broke some glass on accident...feet: i got cleated. dont play soccer without shoes when your friend has cleats on.

How did you celebrate your last birthday?
a late birthday date with my boyfriend and two other friends to general conference...best date ever (:

How are you feeling at this moment?
pretty chill. baseball caps and bball shorts do that to me.

How did your night go last night?
so-so...
we watched Rango as a family and i chatted with an old friendzy

How did you do in high school?
created havoc and drama and tried to fix it. good thing i get a second chance yah?

How did you get the shirt you're wearing?
same way i get all my t-shirts, i "borrowed" it from a sibling.
this one happens to be lilly's.

How often do you see your best friend?
hm. everyone and no one is my best friend...so i guess not often enough (:

How much money did you spend last month?
probably like a buck or two tops. i'm in debt to me madres.

How old do you want to be when you get married?
somewhere between 23 and 25...ish....?

How old will you be at your next birthday?
eighteeeeennn...smirk.

NINE WHAT'S:

Your mothers name?
haha...Kara Joel Alexis Doriana Kuebler-Albert White. i know - it's a long'un

What did you do last weekend?
i went to a stake social/dance in a barn. and got my shoes covered in manure sand...it was great. to say the least. not even joking.

What would you rather be doing?
looking at the ocean. in california preferably. san jose to be exact.

What did you last cry over?
friends.
girls can be rough on each other if you haven't noticed.

What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
David Tolk CD on repeat, sunsets with rain....family. my brothers. music. my friend in cali saying hi

What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other?
four words: faithful to the Lord.

What are you worried about?
a new high school my senior year...and that my old friends will forget me.

What did you have for breakfast?
fiber cereal (:

EIGHT HAVE YOU’S:

Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
i think so, yah.

Have you ever had your heart broken?
yes.

Have you ever been out of the country?
haha Canadia counts right? niagra falls

Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
hahaha...heck yah.

Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
ugh. yah..

Have you ever dated someone younger than you?
ew no.

Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
haha of course (:

SEVEN WHO’S:

Who was the last friend you saw?
Kylie? but i kind of just met her too.

Who was the last person you IM/texted?
Kim (: haha she's the best

Who was the last person you hungout with?
brittani. we watched Twister and ran through sprinklers

Who was the last person to call you?
Mumz

Who did you last hug?
a parental unit called Dad.

Who is the last person who texted you?
Nicole

Who was the last person you said "i love you" to?
said? i wrote it to Jordon. (:

SIX WHERE’S:

Where does your best friend live?
hm...difficult to choose just one...but the main ones: highland, pg, af, cali, korea, and france.

Where did you last go?
the mailbox. and smiths.

Where did you last hang out?
brittani bilzzz's 'ouse

Where do you go to school?
summer girl here. but salem hills high - soon. ish.

Where is your favorite place to be?
in a hug with a good friend (:

Where did you sleep last night?
an african jungle next to a hijacked airplane: at least in my dream i did.

FIVE DO’S/DOES:

Do you like someone right now?
i think so.

Do you think anyone likes you?
odd question. not sure - i'm not really around people other than family recently. jack my puppy likes me. obviously or he wouldn't be sitting at my feet right now...

Do you ever wish you were someone else?
No. where's the fun in that. (:

Do you know the muffin man?
no....we've never had the pleasure of meeting. (:

Does the future scare you?
a little; but then i remember that i'm the one in control and then i'm not.

FOUR WHY’S:

Why are you best friends with your best friend(s)?
Because we can always be ourselves. no matter what.

Why did you get a Facebook?
because my mum finally said i could

Why did your parents give you the name you have?
because they liked that show with the girl doctor in the west?

Why are you doing this survey?
to waste time that would be spent in cleaning the house (:

THREE IF’S:

If you could have one super power what would it be??
teleportation. anywhere, anytime. i could finally be there for my friends when they needed me. and i could go see the ocean.

If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
tempting...you have no idea how tempting but no. i don't mess with fate.

If you were stranded on a deserted island & could bring 1 thing what would you bring?
a boat. (:

TWO WOULD-YOU-EVER’S:

Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you?
in two years...maybe. it's up to the big guy upstairs what happens from this point on.

Would you ever move to run away from a problem?
yes, yes i would. definitely.

ONE LAST QUESTION

Are you happy with your life right now?
Lonely. but happy (: yes i am happy. how could i not be? it's beautiful out here.

too busy to blog

gonna be gone for a while - my mom is disconnecting the internet, and i don't know how long it will take for her to set it up again with another company that reaches down there. hopefully i'll be able to write again soon, but who knows, with unpacking and everything it's unlikely. if anyone needs to contact me pretty sure the important people have my cell # and if not...well...oh well for you (:

but hey if you do have my cell # and are bored...pretty sure i'll appreciate anyone who texts me - totally open to the idea in other words. dont be a stranger (:

kaylla

Perks and Quirks

ever taken the time to observe someone for a couple minutes and during that time noticed that something was seriously off about them? something about the way the walked, something about the way they talked, move around, dress, react, smile...did it bother you? annoy you? or did you completely fall in love with them?

has anyone ever told you their real pet peeves? like one of mine...i hate it when people chew loudly, or talk while eating...*shiver...

i've kind of been thinking about them a little bit again. it takes a very long time of looking at someone to see them do something like that, to make it a quirk or a habit that nobody else sees (sometimes not even themselves), so obviously you really only see those things in the people you admire, love, or are forced to be around the most, or when/if you are looking for them. obviously.

just some that i've noticed in other people...

there's this one girl i know who whenever i watched her play basketball on our school team, the way she runs reminds me of a girl that really needs to use the restroom... awkward... *cough.

another gal i love an adore, the moment she gets in her car she turns on her radio (and pretty loud too) and sometimes i wonder if she is doing it because we'll be in the middle of a conversation and then hop in the car and she'll blast the music... and we're still talking.

haha and then this girl i knew really well... she drank all the milk from her breakfast cereal first and then ate the actual cereal last.

there was this boy at my school as well - and i don't know if i've ever seen any other guy do it, but if he was playing soccer (it was never during any other time that i noticed) and he was waiting for the ball to come to him - he'd put his hands on his hips.

ha, i've been told that one of mine is that when i talk to any guys i always sway...i don't really know what they mean by "sway" but i guess i do because they even got my own mother to confirm it.

if you know me, you also know that i walk funny (which is one reason i can partly laugh at the way that other girl runs because i probably look just as awkward as she does). oh and i hate the word cute, well actually i hate it when people call me cute.... unless i'm actually being cute - but if they really mean pretty... ugh. just say pretty - not cute. it's so demeaning. haha

pet peeves.

we were talking about these in a sunday school class once a long long time ago, one person mentioned fingernails on a chalkboard and we all cringed. that's a pet peeve: something that makes you want to cringe or simply slap the causer silly until they stop. repugnating influences upon our sanity.

what's one of yours?

if you don't want to be silly-slapped then don't chew loudly (unintentionally) around me. if someone does it on purpose obviously that's different...but if you're like my mother and have absolutely no soundproofing barriers to protect the listeners from the grinding of your teeth from food...be aware in my presence that i may become very very annoyed. AAAaaaahhhh! one time in a class i had at school this girl started randomly eating lettuce...yah, random i know and if you know me - i also don't have much of a thing for lettuce either.

she started crunching away like no other.

{insert insanity scream here}

it took all the patience inside my cynical blunt sarcastic little body to keep from telling her to stop shoving food in her pie-hole while i was trying to listen to the lesson. i tried giving her those "meaningful" looks too, and you'd think every girl is self-conscious enough to notice that look but no...she keeepppppttttt onnnnnnnn cchhheewwwiinnggg... !!! good thing that that was when the teacher noticed her eating in his classroom because i was about to let loose and be really rude.

saved by the teacher with a good eye. *relieved smile

maybe i'm annoying or i just get annoyed a lot but i have a feeling it's only going to get worse. lilly and my mom often take offense to my honesty... and they are the two people who know me best in this world (although, not by choice).

excuse me if i offended anyone in how blunt i was in this post. i love all these people dearly - duh, otherwise i wouldn't criticize them. yah i know - twisted logic - but really, that's the truth!

talk-to-you-later

kaylla

ps - i really like the no-capital letters idea, i saw it on someone else's blog. what do you think?