Another Ending

School is almost over. My friend Spud (Tiffany) (check out her blog) said something about 20 more hours? Wow...next week isn't even really school even! We don't have school Monday, Tuesday is Field Day (we get to go to the canyon where we had the Media-Burning Project), Wednesday we have...one normal day - maybe...not sure, then the teachers v. boys soccer team game, then graduation...then Thursday is the last day of school...and that's it. I'll be done.

I've always hated "Goodbyes". They just seem to say - "yah goodbye! hope I never see you again!" which really isn't true - for the most part ;) jk, no it really isn't true. It seems like every time that Summer comes around you say "hey! let's stay in touch yah?" and it never happens. It's horrible because a lot of my friends this year are foreign exchange students so...it really is goodbye, if not forever, for a VERY long time. I hate it!

But then I realize that this is ALL a part of growing up. There are some things I need to talk about with some people about the coming future but for the most part I have my life planned out. School - not so sure yet...but you know what? It'll all be ok.

I think that's another hard part to saying goodbye - saying goodbye to friends and situations and lifestyles, you never know what's coming next. It's going to completely surprise you! Like a year ago - I wrote myself a letter and wrote on the envelope: Do not open until June 1st. I'm DYING to open it now :) you have NO idea. A year ago I was...a COMPLETELY different person. One thing which is CREEPY is that I told myself as a complete sarcastic joke was that I'd have a boyfriend...huh.

ANYway. After the whole jazz with tenth grade and the whole new world I've discovered this year - I'm curious as to what this new ending will introduce. I hope I don't have to say goodbye forever to certain people - But C'est la vie yah? Ugh...I'm just begging in my head for the Lord not to take this happiness away from me because of distance and separation. I STILL don't know if I'm happy to move or sad...I think I'm sad to move further away from some people and happy that I'll never see certain others again. Too bad it can't just be Happy. Sad. Done. :P

Another Ending...That's synonymous to Another Beginning. I get another chance to start over, isn't that what everyone wants? I should just be thankful, and talking to my mom about how sometimes I'm a bit bi-polar, I gotta just learn to roll with the punches. If something ends, I need to close the book and just pick up another. :)

I like how I've been feeling constantly happy recently - and not overly happy either, just...content. I thank my three closest friends for that - Madison, Nicole, and Kaytlyn. One of them is Always there for me, sometimes more than one at a time :P haha.

So Thanks to all my wonderful friends, my life really is good, I'm scared but ready I think to move on....

THE END ;)

Kaylla