Sometimes when a friend you considered close doesn't want to hang out with you as much . . . kind of hurts. I don't usually consider myself sensitive but I guess two things hit me really hard. Well - harder than most.
1. When someone who says you're their best friend decides they would rather be with other people than you and treats you as if you're feelings are just second opinions. Hurtful - never do it to your friends. They'll love you if you treat then as you want to be treated, which hopefully is better than crap.
2. Never muddy someone's name. I walked around a corner and although I couldn't hear everything they said - a bunch of people started bad-mouthing me. I'm not deaf. I can hear you and if I didn't then I'll probably hear it later and from someone else. If it's not hurting you then leave it alone and if it is hurting you I'm sorry but PLEASE tell me to my face.
No one likes being hurt and feeling like their friends are just pieces of paper where you fill in the blanks.
I want to thank all of my friends who I consider TRUE friends: you probably wont ever read this except maybe two or three of you - but if you do - I love you and know that you're appreciated, especially for including me in friendships I don't think I really deserve.
Also another thing - Why would there be an adjective for loneliness but not for solitude? One expresses the sorrow and the other the peace - so why do we explain things with sadness but not peace?
I read someone's thingy on facebook (no I do not have one - please stop inviting me - not allowed so just wait another year please!) but it said that the thing they were searching for was friendship. Aren't we all in a sense, or validation of sorts? I doubt that person will ever read my blog but if so I hope they know I personally consider them a friend (dunno about them but aren't a lot of friendships one sided without our knowing?)
I've just been feeling a bit depressed - sorry. I wanted to keep posting "regularly" haha however that works but I hope it was still insightful.
Love for you all! Even those who break my heart ;)
KaYlLa
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