bittersweet

today i got put on the list for call-backs for Fiddler on the Roof. I'm happy, but then again i think just at this moment i am more sad about it. first of all, amaya didn't get called back and she is basically my favorite person to be around as of recent. i'm pretty sure she'll be in ensemble, but still. it would have been 100% cool/awesome/tubular if she and i could be like "sisters" or something {because people have actually started calling me amaya on accident, she too has brown hair the same length as mine and apparently we look similar from the back, haha, remind you of anyone?} and second reason for almost sadness is that i was going to visit american heritage after school tomorrow after school- but that's when call-backs are. now i won't get to see anyone, specifically well...those special people, y'know?

but then don't get me wrong...i'm SUPER excited to be on the call-backs list. a lot of my other friends made the list to {i freaking don't understand why amaya didn't make it. she's amazing!} gr. i don't want to get my hopes up or anything...but i would love to do the chava crying scene again. but of course, we will see.

on another note - today was a good day. even if i did fall asleep in griff's class. but amaya making faces at me from the other side of the room helped me stay more awake near the end (: i wish assigned seating would put our names together but alphabetically W is nowhere near B.

some people just really make me laugh, like jason, seth, charlie, sean...yah - these are the guys i am surrounded with now, i love this group of people. i feel so easy and good around them. and mr. bills' talk at the beginning of the year about Singers and Spotlight singers being a "safe" place - is totally true. i feel safer and safer.

kaylla

{post script - i'm usually not so hyper as i am recently. i think it's just nerves with the auditions and...other things, yah. so if you have seen me recently and think "wow that girl is crazy", yes that is true - but i'm normally less crazy.}